May 2013
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May 17th
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April 2013
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“More and more, it feels like I’m doing a really bad impersonation of myself.”
– Chuck Palahniuk, Asfixia (via qodless)
Apr 29th
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Apr 29th
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“I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening...”
– Franz Kafka (via razorshapes)
Apr 28th
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Apr 27th
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Apr 24th
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Apr 24th
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Apr 24th
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i hate feeling like i am fighting against myself every second. i hate feeling like i am held together by a string that i have to hold taught or i will fall to pieces. i hate feeling some else that isn’t quite definable loom over me like a specter and momentarily take control. i hate feeling powerless and feeling like there must be something wrong with my will power because i can’t stop...
Apr 24th
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Stop threatening the HIPAA rights of people with... →
allacharade: crown-of-weeds: Imagine the federal government holding conversations about your privacy - except yours is the only voice not at the table. This is what people with psychiatric disabilities are facing as the House Energy & Commerce Oversight Subcommittee takes up the issue of mental health and privacy rights under HIPAA. Rep. Tim Murphy, Chair of the House Energy & Commerce...
Apr 23rd
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Apr 20th
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Apr 14th
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March 2013
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Mar 14th
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Mar 10th
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Mar 6th
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Mar 5th
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Mar 3rd
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February 2013
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Feb 26th
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last night my body shut down and I couldn’t move. It felt like being drugged. my friends finally convinced me to sleep (not at home, i was at a friends house and was too out of it to even go home). I didn’t sleep. I have been alternating between shaking and being stuck in one position physically, and between zoning out and half dreaming and non-stop racing thoughts of the most random...
Feb 25th
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Feb 23rd
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Feb 23rd
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Feb 22nd
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Feb 22nd
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Feb 17th
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Feb 6th
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January 2013
10 posts
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i feel like if I don’t actively distract myself i will, at the least, break down again, and possibly do something i regret. but then staying up distracting myself is already something to regret.
Jan 29th
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monsterbeneathmyribs: I am speaking a language no one has taken the time to translate.
Jan 29th
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madhattersociety: any other bipolar’s/BPD’s here have dissociation problems? my psych thinks a lot of the dissociation is due to permanently altered brain/thought paterns because of fucked up mood stuff/manic thought cycles. Or something
Jan 14th
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can i just give up on trying to keep track of...
It really unnerves me when I see all these posts on my dash about how “cool” and “inspiring” it would be if people didn’t obsesses over time so much. I would love to have any basic grasp of the time passing so I didn’t constantly get startled by it being 5 hours later… I sometimes wonder if I am missing a fundamental part of human existence because I...
Jan 14th
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Jan 11th
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Jan 10th
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Anonymous asked: Have you read "Radical Constructivism" by von Glasersfeld? His work parallels Hofstadter's in eerie ways, going into the cognitive science and cybernetics of subjective reality.
Jan 10th
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Things that have happened in the past 48 hours
Sudden suicidal depression from no where. Thankfully, because it came out of nowhere and fast, I was just shocked, confused, and it didn’t infect my logic before I knocked it down to a “wouldn’t it be nice not to be alive,” passive wish kind of depression that came out of no where. Woke up (at 8pm after sleeping all day, as I have been doing) and was unable to will myself...
Jan 9th
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Jan 9th
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Jan 3rd
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December 2012
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Dec 31st
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Dec 30th
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Dec 20th
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What being alone again is like
biologyweeps: allacharade: biologyweeps: strangeloops: I’ve been alone in my head for the majority of the starting this summer. Here is what I have noticed: I am wasting more time - more specifically, I find myself totally engaged in non-productive, off topic tasks, often mentally unable to stop. Sometimes, I know full well that I should stop, sometimes, I don’t even like what I am...
Dec 18th
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What being alone again is like
biologyweeps: strangeloops: I’ve been alone in my head for the majority of the starting this summer. Here is what I have noticed: I am wasting more time - more specifically, I find myself totally engaged in non-productive, off topic tasks, often mentally unable to stop. Sometimes, I know full well that I should stop, sometimes, I don’t even like what I am doing, but I can’t. Other times,...
Dec 16th
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What being alone again is like
I’ve been alone in my head for the majority of the starting this summer. Here is what I have noticed: I am wasting more time - more specifically, I find myself totally engaged in non-productive, off topic tasks, often mentally unable to stop. Sometimes, I know full well that I should stop, sometimes, I don’t even like what I am doing, but I can’t. Other times, I am hardly even...
Dec 14th
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Dec 12th
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Dec 4th
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Dec 3rd
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November 2012
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whynot-dissociativedegu: [Image: 12-piece background, alternating between blue & orange with a picture of a young degu in the middle. Top text reads: “LOOK AT MY HAND” Bottom text reads: “HOW WEIRD IS MY HAND”] I have dissociation problems. My brother smokes pot recreationally. Sometimes, we say remarkably similar things. ((I double checked that this was the right blog, started typing...
Nov 28th
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My friends say things like “omg, I can’t get off tumblr, lol” and it’s 7:40am And I’m like, guys, sometimes I actually CAN’T get off tumblr. Like for some reason, I just keep scrolling, and clicking and I am not fully in control and I have no idea who or what is, but I know I need to sleep, need to get off tumblr, but I can’t. And I zone out and...
Nov 28th
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AMA (ask me anything) from reddit: IAMA someone... →
TRIGGER WARNING on dissociation. I couldn’t get through more than a couple questions. This hit far to close to home, even it my case isn’t exactly the same. I’ve never thought about things in these words, and I am going to try to push through it bit by bit, because parts of it were incredibly accurate to how I feel. It’s actually something I’ve been thinking about...
Nov 20th
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Nov 20th
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“I’m restless. Things are calling me away. My hair is being pulled by the stars...”
– Anaïs Nin  (via elizafairbrother)
Nov 1st
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October 2012
12 posts
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Can anyone help me out with this?
not sure what to do. not sure what is going on. no sure how to say it. my ability to track time is reaching an all time low. It just keeps slipping by and keeping on top of what has happened and what I have to do is becoming overwhelming. Its like I can’t be fully aware of both at the same time. I am aware to some extent, I think, most if not all of the time, but I can’t force...
Oct 30th
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